妒忌？

這天，不用英文了。從前我就介意不能公開的戀情。我知道愛情是兩個人的事，無須向任何人交代，但我就是介意，是因為刻意的隱瞞。

我其實很不想看你的網上日記，因為即使跟我在一起的日子，你日記裡的也只有她，沒有我。那不代表你愛她，但代表你介意給別人知道你有我。知道你從前會對她所做的一切，現在差不多也沒有對我做過，我不敢說完全沒有，或許只是你不夠愛我吧。每次一想到這裡，我心就痛起來。

妒忌，這叫妒忌嗎？我不知道，只知道你現在是愛我，但一定不夠那時你愛她，我知道不應該比較。唉，不打了，睡吧！

Cool Down

IT is time for us to cool doan, if we can go over this time, we will be lasted long~ Anyway, I think the most important thing is that my love still love me, right?

Be lost temper

YESTERDAY, my love lost temper on me, it hurts. I hate it and I feel bad untill now. Was that a small event? Maybe. I do not think he should loss temper on me, since I think this was an communication problem. That was not only my business. Why he lost temper on me?

IF the person who lost temper on me was not him, I will loss temper too. Ah... What can I do? I am afraid of my future if I marry him. So, I WON'T marry him unless he can control his temper. We come from differnet world and I think I must not accept hos bad temper!

FUCKING off!

Smiles and Cries

IF cry become a custom, what will happen? If smile become a luxury, what will happen? If I cry, is there anyone concern? I do not want to be a troubles, but I used to since I am sad when I have leisure time. I hate so, but what can I do?

''WHAT can I do?'' is seemed to be a platitude for me in these six months. But it is real, what can I do? ''I want to live with you.'' can I believe? Unless, which one that I can trust?

SMILES are far away from me. I wonder to get back ''ME''. Am I Aries Wong now? Unless, who am I?

Tried and Tired

I tried hard to recover my hurtness, but it seemed like useless. I tried hard to love you at my whole heart, but it seemed like difficult. I tried hard to smile all the time with you, but it seemed like I cannot. I tried hard...

MAYBE I will feel hopeless someday. Now I am tired. I wanted to end this situtation but I cannot. If I am strong enough, I will do so. So annoying that I need to wait for so long time, it was half year already, but you did nothing except hurting me. I knew that you tried hard to let me feel better, but the main problem is that you have another one you love. I do not know why you can do so...

TELL me what can I do?

No Pain again

I hate it ! I hate it !

WHAT can I do? Is that only waiting I can do? I have no patient anymore. I heard the sweeties, but I feel hurt, how come? I do not know what they are doing or what happened... I do not like to listen any about her. I feel hurt, did you award of my feelings?

I feel tired and I wonder to end this situation, can I? There were 5 months already, hoe come the problem did not be solved? Under nothing I can do for, I smile only. I have no respone cause I do not know any about you two.

YOU cannot be believed since I do not know why you can say you love me, but your actions were hurting me. Right? How can I trust you? Actually, love will run out under this situation, you know? I won't accept loving you forever under that, so I will leave someday.

IT is feeling no pain again, I do not put hopefulness, so it is not neccessary to be upset. Let bygone be bygone. Right?

Undergo a fact

10/01/2008 was a special day, but not as happy as I think. After that day, I hurt again since I think they were so annoying. Some determinates should be taken and they cannot be restored! No more upset and crying please, NEVER!

HAVING no options, I can undergo this fact. Please treat me fairly...

Pray

I have a wish, does Jesus listen to me? Will it be truth? In fact, I did not have any expectation on our love since I cannot believe that we are together till now. What's more, I think I would be like that till we end.

MY love do not like that I always think of it, maybe that is because it make him feel bad and he cannot give me braveful. Anyway, we can be lasted long, I think. I do not know how to say but feel it. The coming 21 is our 5 months celebration, but I can only feel hurt. It is 5 months already! When will he ended this situation? I do not want to continue...

THERE are 7 months left, if he did nothing, I will end this relation. This is my dead line and I am being hurted. It hurts, really hurts! I did not feel it before, I did not cry because it is afraid that he will leave again. It is noticed that I am confusing for sure, and he hurt me a lot before or even now.