Happiness?

SHOULD I be happy? Maybe, but I cannot feel so. I felt sad since yesterday night, I cried for some moment cause there were somethings happened beside me. In fact, I should be happy about it, but I cannot feel so at all. I only felt guity and sorry...

I am sorry since you do not know me, but I knew that I destroyed somethings and that cannot be restored again. Before that happened, I thought everything will go smoothly if... Yet, it was not the ture, it was wrong and it was not so simple as I through before.

WHAT can I do? I cannot tell my love all about my feelings, I do not want to upset him again. By the way, I can do nothing, JUST TAKE IT EASY, isn't it?