What ma I?

TWO words only, it made me cry and cry like a child... It could break my heart and it was hurt... I wanted to leave again. Maybe, only leaving can solve our problem, or maybe, I should not mind about it. Treause our time? Or just leave alone?

HOW can a person love two people as the same? What am I? We love clandestinely and our love cannot open. Are our love like a secret? Or just keep it a sercet forever? I cannot tell anyone, I cannot keep it anymore. But I have to... Isn't it?