Upset again

EVERYTIME I think of my love, I feel hurt since yesterday. We met two days once, we can only meet for some moment. In fact, I want to leave, I am afraid. From the date we started, I am ready to separate all the time, I cannot believe him at all. I feel pressured when I think of this.

SADLY, what can I do? Maybe, I should not think too much. Our love is not a health love, so there are some problems, isn't it?

MAYBE, I should find someone to balance my love and I. I cannot be balanced again. I cannot accept he will not be with me when it is festival. Moon Festival mean that ''人月兩團圓'', so, he can be with his girlfriend, but what about me?

''SORRY'' cannot solve the problems, only can make him become less guilty, but rise of my upset. I hate this 5 words...