Feeling Stress

MY English seem like a Limited Company, I can't express my mind well. IMPROVEMENTS are very important for me on my poor English now.

I thought many at midnight... ''want to stop what we are doing, Do you know? I want to run away, I think what you told me were lying, I can't believe you as well, maybe you will talk the same things to your girlfriend. I don't know what should I do since I think you cannot bear to hear that.

BESIDES, I LOVE HIM very much, I afraid he will leave me alone. I afraid that he will let me down, I afraid that I will become too count on him... I hope he won't let me cry...